1. A loser rollin' with the Cool Kids.
2.The epitome of radical.
"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13
No one understands how hard it is. Every single day I’m reminded of how stupid this is. I go to school and get good grades. I just went to Santa Cruz and before I left, everyone in my family was being a jerk to me. Like I don’t understand why?! Felt like I wasn’t even there. I was totally ignored which made it that much easier to leave. And when I was gone, I missed them so much. I was so excited to go home, but no one was there besides my uncle. I asked my dad if I could go to L.A. w/ Karen and them because I was thinking about going there for college. He said to not listen to people because you get the same education anywhere else as long as you do good in school. And that I can’t drive and I have no money. I could get scholarships. I ask for driving lessons but no one wants to teach me. I swear, my dad always finds a reason. Then Judy was saying how I have school and whatever. My dad said I could go but kept on going on about how I’m not even going to go there anyways. I was crying. I’m stressed and I’m hurt. I don’t know why if that’s why I’m crying, but it sure does get to me. I think I just might be depressed. I’m sad all the time. I try to stay away from home, but I get homesick. I hate it. I hate how I can’t through to my dad. He won’t give me the time of day. He said it was my fault that he yelled because I kept crying and my mom was talking to him. I don’t know why this happens to me. I feel like everyone gangs up on me. Like when I went to Santa Cruz on Friday, Judy was saying how lucky I was in such a rude way. Seriously, I felt like I deserved to get away from here and do something fun for once! I’m truly am sorry for the things I’ve done. It’s not my intention.
It just makes me so sad when people think no one cares about them and decides to kill themselves. Somewhere, there is going to be someone bawling their eyes out because they wished they could have done something. Sometimes I find it selfish because they don’t think about how much it’ll affect everyone around them, but it does.They blame themselves and it turns into a whole epidemic. Just a huge chain reaction, one after the other.
